Weekly Update 31st August – 6th September 2020

General Update

And so today marks another trip around the sun for me. Birthdays are strange aren’t they? I get quite pensive and down on mine…

Also weird and awkward.

It’s just deeply unsettling to me that there’s supposed to be this day all about you…

I’m not good at that. Imagine actually hosting parties and having things like wish lists for presents that people give you gifts from??? I can’t wrap my head around it.

I like other people’s birthdays, not my own. Birthdays just tend to remind me of all the things in life that I have been unable to do. It took quite a lot of coaxing myself this week to just even admit on my blog today that it’s my birthday. I have a lot of emotional trauma when it comes to my birthday because one of the darkest days of my life was my 18th years ago…

I won’t go into the detail but every year I deal with the pain of that day and how it has shaped the two decades that have followed…

So I’m sitting here quietly in the kitchen, puppy at my feet, mug of tea by my hand, in my pjs… and that will be how I mark the day.

Quietly.

In solitude.

And reflecting on how my life has, and also hasn’t changed, since that 18th birthday that changed everything. I’m still in the middle of a pain flare up and my chest infection is rooting itself into my lungs again… but I have cake. And cake is the best reason to celebrate any day.

Reading Update

I’m still not managing to read as much as I’d like due to my current malaise but I did finish two ARCs this week, The Vela and Crave, and I ADORED both. Will have reviews for the two books on my blog this coming week.

Book Reviews

The following are the book reviews I posted to the blog this week:

Other Bookish Content

And Finally

A little bit of Simon and Garfunkel this week…

31 thoughts on “Weekly Update 31st August – 6th September 2020

  1. Happy Birthday, honey! Cake always makes things that tiny little bit better ❤

    I'm the same. I always feel "meh" on my bdays and never want to do anything, but I LOVE other's bdays and go all out on gifts and preparations. Just like you said, having a day all about me, feels very weird to me, almost like an obligation to do this or that.

    Like

  2. Happy Birthday! My husband is like that on his birthday, ha. I’m glad you are still getting reading do even if it’s not a lot.

    Like

  3. Happy Birthday, sweet Emer! I’m also not big on celebrating my birthday and this year was actually the first time in… many years that I’ve actually had cake to celebrate (and not just a glass of wine and Maccas because I’m just that classy)! Sending you giant panda hugs and warm wishes on your day, my friend. I hope you feel better soon 💙

    Like

  4. Happy Birthday! I have a love/hate relationship with my birthday, as well. I always feel like I’m under a microscope on my birthday, everyone watching closely to see how I’ll react. It’s an odd thing, wanting and not wanting attention. If you haven’t seen New Girl with Zooey Deschanel, there’s a couple of episodes about her birthday. She always just wants to be alone. I always identified with it, and it made me smile! But as I get older, I just try to remind myself that it’s a blessing to have seen another year, even if it doesn’t always feel like it. Ha! I hope you had a lovely day. ❤

    Like

  5. Happy birthday, Emer!! ❤ I hope you managed to enjoy it even if birthdays aren’t really your thing – after all, cake and spending time with your dog sounds like a pretty good way of celebrating to me 😉 I hope you feel better soon!! 💜💙💚❤

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s