And so today marks another trip around the sun for me. Birthdays are strange aren’t they? I get quite pensive and down on mine…
Also weird and awkward.
It’s just deeply unsettling to me that there’s supposed to be this day all about you…
I’m not good at that. Imagine actually hosting parties and having things like wish lists for presents that people give you gifts from??? I can’t wrap my head around it.
I like other people’s birthdays, not my own. Birthdays just tend to remind me of all the things in life that I have been unable to do. It took quite a lot of coaxing myself this week to just even admit on my blog today that it’s my birthday. I have a lot of emotional trauma when it comes to my birthday because one of the darkest days of my life was my 18th years ago…
I won’t go into the detail but every year I deal with the pain of that day and how it has shaped the two decades that have followed…
So I’m sitting here quietly in the kitchen, puppy at my feet, mug of tea by my hand, in my pjs… and that will be how I mark the day.
And reflecting on how my life has, and also hasn’t changed, since that 18th birthday that changed everything. I’m still in the middle of a pain flare up and my chest infection is rooting itself into my lungs again… but I have cake. And cake is the best reason to celebrate any day.
I’m still not managing to read as much as I’d like due to my current malaise but I did finish two ARCs this week, The Vela and Crave, and I ADORED both. Will have reviews for the two books on my blog this coming week.
The following are the book reviews I posted to the blog this week:
- Never Say No by Elizabeth Neep
Other Bookish Content
- Goodreads Monday: Goddess in the Machine
- Top Ten Tuesday: Books That Make Me Hungry
- The Uncertainty of the Three Star Review: A Thought Piece
A little bit of Simon and Garfunkel this week…